Sober Since: 12 / 15 / 2014
Sober For: 8 Years & 56 Days
What it was like?
It was awful to wake up day after day, week after week. My addiction was getting worse, so was everything else in my life especially my health. The blackouts started at 19. Four alcohol-related arrests by the time I was 21. I acknowledged my alcoholism at 26 and said I needed helped, but I didn't do anything about it. I couldn't stop drinking and no matter what I tried to do to control the drinking I was helpless. The blackouts became more frequent, I started isolating myself from anyone that was upset at my drinking or I drank even more at them. It was a lose-lose all around.
I was close to giving up. I kept hurting myself in blackouts. I broke down on my knees and asked God to save me. I called my doctor in December of 2014 and told him I needed help. He recommended an outpatient program and AA. I went to the program for 3 months straight after work and 2-3 AA meetings a day. I changed EVERYTHING. People, places and things. I relocated states, left my marriage and started over.
What it is like now?
I let go and let God. I wake up with hope and opportunity. I know God has a plan for me if I follow a program for recovery I will make it another day. I share my story in hopes to help others realize the insanity can be stopped.