What it was like?
I started drinking when I was 14 years old, but I always remember alcohol being a part of my life. I mean, I grew up in an Irish Catholic family where a 7 course meal was considered 6 pints and a potato.
In the height of my drinking at age 21, I was a complete mess. I was drinking nearly every day, putting myself in physically dangerous situations, and in a deep depression. It was like living in a numb, deadening pain - I knew it wasn’t healthy, but it was all I knew.
The thing is, I knew I had a problem. But the thought of getting sober and having it not work was terrifying to me. Because even if I was miserable drinking, at least I still had the hope that things could get better. Without that, I knew for sure I would be dead.
What happened?
I took control of my life on January 1, 2010. Three months prior I had been arrested on multiple counts of aggravated assault and public intoxication, which sent me into a daily drinking binge.
When I woke up on New Years morning, I decided to try to run off the toxins and regret of night before. Somewhere on the run I had the thought, “At least when I get back to my apartment, I can have a drink.”
And in that moment, it hit me: I had a drinking problem. After years of struggling with alcoholism, depression, and physical and emotional abuse, I had hit rock bottom.
I started attending AA meetings and working the steps with a sponsor. About three months later, I started a new job and a new relationship - both of which were live savers to me at that time in my life.
And through working the recovery program with support from strong mentors, I was able to rehabilitate this addiction. And one day at a time, was able to create a life that I desire.
What it is like now?
When I decided to live life this way, on my terms, everything changed.
I’m not sure when, but at some point everything shifted. I went from thinking, “How could I go the rest of my life without drinking?” to “How could I ever drink again?”
On the outside, I am thriving with a six figure coaching business where I get to help others create mental breakthroughs and take steps toward creating a quality of life that they desire. But on the inside, I have experienced a level of contentment, joy, and peace that I didn’t know was even possible.
Here is what I know to be true: When you get clear on your purpose, remove limiting beliefs, and take massive action - you can create whatever you want in life.