Trent Bailey

To be honest I don't remember a lot of it.

Seven years ago this morning I watched the Sun come up over the ocean, the waves break on the beach, and reached deep into the cooler and popped the top on the last beer.

As was the case many times before in my life I noticed people around me staring down their noses while they drank their morning coffee. I assume that they were just being judgemental thinking that I had started drinking so early in the morning and not knowing the truth that I was just finishing very late from the night before and honestly I didn't really care what anyone else thought.

I drank there quietly and reflected over how messed up things had gotten in my life and decided that I might temporarily, need to stop drinking just long enough to clear my head you understand, and try to resolve some of a clutter that had filled my life. It turns out that , for me anyway, there is always something that messes up that white picket fence dream but now I just deal with it sober. I owe my family a lot for putting up with me throughout all those years and one day at a time I am trying to repay them . If you struggle from some type of addiction, don't wait , ask for help.

There is a lot more clarity. Just like everyone else there are still bad days, the big difference now is I stay sober to handle them.