Sober Since: 02 / 06 / 2017
Sober For: 5 Years & 105 Days
What it was like?
I'll never forget waking up, which was an unexpected occurance as some friends did not expect me to wake up the next morning, and not just thinking, but knowing the party was over. It was the darkest days I had seen, not really wanting to die, but being disappointed waking up everyday. Knowing that I would let somebody down, ruin something for someone or myself, or simply just continue to disappoint family and friends had me at a point I would never wish upon my worst enemy.
I found a higher power, I found a support system, and I was finally able to believe in myself enough to know that I could make it through those first few, really rough days, and come out on the other side.
What it is like now?
Life is unexplainable. I never in a million years that I would receive the gifts that a clean and sober lifestyle have given me. And although it has only been a short time, it has given me the strength and motivation to keep going and spread my experiences with others.