Sober Since: 03 / 14 / 2016
Sober For: 4 Years & 256 Days
What it was like?
It was like pretending I have it all together. Truly believing I didn't need to stop drinking. It was exhausting. I fought with everyone and sabotaged relationships. I was insecure. The worst part was fighting with myself on whether I was in need of sobriety or not.
I drove home from the bar and put my car into a ditch. I then physically hurt my significant other in front of our daughter. I knew after that I needed to stop drinking. So I did.
What it is like now?
I feel clear minded. I was able to peel off a few layers of myself to become who I really want to be. I find it easier to be honest and I worry less, too. I am more confident in where I want my life to go. It's nice to have something to myself that I have actually accomplished. I never thought I'd be sober, but now I can't imagine not being sober. It has become easier each day. I feel grateful for that night, & proud of my sobriety.