What it was like?

I hated waking up every single day. I was unhappy, miserable and angry. I felt like I was wandering around life without a road map and couldn't deal with anything. I needed alcohol and pills to do ANYTHING.

What happened?

I crashed my second car in two years in a complete blackout from alcohol and pills, and I had NO memory of either one of them. Both times, I was going to pick up my kids. I am so grateful I never got to do that.

What it is like now?

My life is amazing. I work in the field of recovery and I get to help people make their lives better. I love waking up today, and I actually love interacting with people. Today, I am able to sit still. Today, I am good enough. I am a pretty amazing person, thanks to recovery.