What it was like?

Horrible.. I lost everything and everyone. I was homeless, broken and tempted on taking my own life. I was using heroin when I didn't want to use. I was absolutely hopeless/

What happened?

After having my second child who was two months old, I ended up relapsing and overdosed next to his crib while he was asleep. My 14 year old brother walked into the room and found me dead on the floor. My father ended up doing CPR while my mom took my crying children to the next room. I was revived by EMS and woke up in the hospital, repeatedly getting Narcan administrated to me. Only thing on my mind was to kill myself. I wanted to die. I was tired...so sick and tired of me and the life I was living. The worst pain I had ever experienced was losing my children. Endless nights of crying myself to sleep because I missed them. I was then determined to turn my life around.

What it is like now?

I have completed the 12 steps. I have learned how to be honest with myself. I have a sponsor, a homegroup, a support group.. I am an alumni at the long term treatment center I graduated from. I now teach classes at this facility once a week. I got a car in my name for the first time in years. I have my own apartment and working on getting my children back. I have made amends to my loved ones and friends. I can now handle bad situations without lashing out. I can admit when I am wrong and apologize today. I make a daily commitment to GOD every morning. I pray every day, almost all day. I focus on being spiritual and helping other women, because women have helped me.