Sober Since: 12 / 06 / 2017
Sober For: 3 Years & 289 Days
What it was like?
There were not enough opiates in the world to numb the pain and self-hatred I had for myself. I woke up in an ICU and was told I died.
I have have no doubt in my mind it is but for the grace of God I am alive and happy today. When I felt no worth, he paid it all for me.
What it is like now?
The beautiful, overwhelming, reckless of God - and today, he is with me and I can live and love myself again and not live in the pain and desecrated relationships that my addiction and myself caused.