Name: Samuel M.
Sober Since: 05 / 06 / 2012
Sober For: 9 Years & 212 Days
What it was like?
I had no job, I was penniless. I woke up each morning or afternoon, evenings shakes, and the only thing helped me feel better was another drink, and then the entire cycle would start over. I remember the remorseful feeling and all of my life's guilt... so I drowned it all.
I asked God, if you are there would you show me how I can stop? Inside I knew I didn't want to die, at least not that way I checked into detox for three days with intentions of going treatment. Going to treatment didn't work out so I went to meetings, and more meetings.
What it is like now?
Well it's taken a broken relationship to open my eyes again about the cunning and baffleness of this disease. The heartache is deep and real unabated by alcohol. I have gone back to meetings., going work these steps again to the best of my ability. My life is depending up on it. I need to learn how to love myself before I can love someone else. I have a job and still am sober. I have family and friends that care about me. I am going be ok.