Sober Since: 03 / 18 / 2018
Sober For: 4 Years & 264 Days
What it was like?
I got lost ,i was so lost that I forgot what it was like to love myself, and when that happen i lost the ones my loved ones ,and I only lost them because I couldn’t love them,until I loved my myself again,it’s was the the most horrible thing ever knowing that I completely destroyed myself worth
I got caught up with the wrong crowd that took me down with them, used me to help push there drugs ,and I never payed for them because I was helping them , I got caught up by starting off with pills ,then leading to china white. But then I tried meth that was this rush happy feelings,until i kept doing more and more then my highs only brought me lows I couldn’t get high anymore and just about killed my self ,and then the greatest thing ever happen to me ,my higher power blessed me with a beautiful little girl, it was at that moment I felt loved again and when she was born I look her in the eyes and made a promise to her that she will never ever know that side of me and never ever see me as addict ,only as her daddy,,
What it is like now?
It’s the most awesome,feeling in the world,the feeling of loving myself again,and being able to give that back to my beautiful daughter and little boys of mine ,i am for ever greatfull and blessed,with gratitude and integrity and this drive to help others,and let them know that faith in the key to it all ,faith in your self and faith that you never have to use again!!