Sober Since: 10 / 29 / 2017
Sober For: 4 Years & 205 Days
What it was like?
Groundhog Day...I sang in a band and thought I was on top of the world. One totalled vehicle and a DUI meh, no biggie it was by chance and mostly because I was messing with the radio, right!?! More partying, lot's of complaining about never having money, more of the same. Second DUI no license, kept partying and playing shows, still broke still not getting anywhere....Groundhog Day.
I had what I perceived as an opportunity to move up in the company I was working for. I thought all of my opportunities were blown already, so this was definitely a surprise to me and I knew I needed to get my act together. Attempt one: Had one last hoorah with my closest friends and bandmates, NYE 2016...didn't tell anyone I was stopping, but I knew it was time and I did, for about 8 months, before it was one or two here and there to "take the edge off" at shows. October 28th 2017 rolls around and we have an annual Halloween party to play with some close friends, the opportunity I thought I had, to move up in the company had passed and I give in, because I thought that was the last opportunity I would have. I went wild and drank until I was sick. Attempt two: October 29th 2017 I woke up, feeling absolutely horrible not just physically, but emotionally and spiritually. I couldn't explain why I had drank or say that I even felt good while I was drinking, in fact I felt guilt the entire time I was drinking, I didn't really socialize and was alone at this party most of the night. I drank one last beer to wash the taste of puke out of my mouth and swore that I would never drink again. I meant it and I have been sober since.
What it is like now?
I quit the band, due to the amount of craziness involved and am more family oriented. I just began going to AA again to be around more sober friends and move beyond the sobriety of a hermit, that I've achieved myself and I just scored an entry level position to my dream career as an electrician. I am also making big moves towards reinstating my license in the next few months!