Sober Since: 12 / 30 / 2013
Sober For: 5 Years & 343 Days
What it was like?
Pain, lies, betreyal, fear, stealing and selfloathing. I hated my life, but didn’t have the tools to make it better. I kept losing everything I had. My son was taken, I got beatings on a daily base, and had no friends or family left to go to. My world was as big as a button.
I saw what could happen to me and after all I’ve been trough, it was over: I was tired, had no energy left in me and no motivation left. I needed to choose life or die.
What it is like now?
I have my life back. I get to see my son every month and we have so much fun now. My boyfriend, we live together, is such an amazing man and he supports every step I take. I have the most amazing job ever! Working with other addicts! It gives me so much energy to share my experience. My life turned around so much. The most important thing is that I learned to love myself on the good and the bad days. That doesn’t mean I’m always in a good place, but I’m a work in progress, I’ll get there. Every day is a step towards where I should be. As long as I keep accepting that I’m still not perfect, I will keep growing :)