Sober Since: 03 / 21 / 2015
Sober For: 5 Years & 112 Days
What it was like?
I was completely off the rails. Struggling to control it but the remorse and regret for my actions was brutal. I had begun to gauge how bad the previous night was by whether my wife smiled at me the next morning....... usually there was none. I wasn't sleeping or eating and my marriage was on its last thread.
I made one final attempt to prove I could have some control which ended with a bizarre shopping spree and some unexplainable injuries. I come to realize that I had progressed to the point that it no longer mattered what or how little I drank.......it always led to a blackout and Lord knows what......
What it is like now?
It's been a long road but I spring out of bed early every morning ready for life! I still say stupid stuff but I mean it when I do and I remember! My marriage is strong and I have a happy regret and remorse free life. I still strive every day to become the man that I always wished that I was! Life is Good!!