Marti Ann

It was never a thing to do for fun, it was to tolerate life and to deal with the pain and heart ache. It only got me further and further into the darkest place I have ever experienced. Something worse then the Devil himself.

I had several situations that occurred before I initially called it quits and gave into a world that I already knew better then to go. I lost my family to suicide and was in a extremely abusive relationship, It took me one time and I was hooked and lost everything I had and spent everything I had including my dads life insurance on drugs. I tried to kill myself so many times and just when I thought I was surely done for, I woke up in hell still. I finally decided after my last attempt to kill myself that god has me here on earth for a purpose and its something that is going to help many and I decided I would go to rehab and went for a year. I will be clean now two years.

I have never been happier. I can finally be who I want to be for the first time without a man telling me how I should feel and how I should behave and where I will go and when and to spend all my time with his family members that absolutely hated me, that alone made me want to do drugs even more. I am finally away from that. I have my own apartment and work two jobs. one is very good and a career and the other is at night for a social life to keep me on track and spending time in a safe place. I have my kids joint but they are trusting me again and love me . I have my mothers and grandmas support and I lost my brother, father and grandpa in two years. I am working on getting where I need to be in life and have this dream since I was young of my life and I wont be content til I see it happen and I am on the right track.