Sober Since: 03 / 16 / 2012
Sober For: 8 Years & 255 Days
What it was like?
It was unmanageable, lonely and I was just existing and not living. I gave up on God and was living life with my will and not his. I was drinking daily and popping any pills I could get my hands on. I drank at my desk during work to just appear normal.
I just was so tired of fighting the addiction and I knew I was going to die if I didn't get help. I had to surrender to what was holding me back from God. I had to get honest with myself and work the steps.
What it is like now?
My life today is amazing and I am so grateful. I have a sponsor, I sponsor women, and attend 3-5 meetings a week, I do service work at detox centers, treatment centers, and prisons. I live life today with God's will and I practice the principals each and every day. I do daily spot checks in regards to an inventory. I am smiling a real smile and I have such a peace of mind I have never had.