Name: Dale Palmer Smith
Sober Since: 03 / 17 / 2016
Sober For: 6 Years & 265 Days
What it was like?
Going through 2 rehabs back to back for a total of 98 days was by far the most painful & labor intensive event I have had to undergo. The first focused on the disease of alcoholism and addiction. I had a really difficult detox there but gathered a very strong foundation on the Big Book and coping skills. The second was geared towards childhood sexual trauma. Learning how that trauma has affected my life and gathering coping skills and experiencing freedom from it. Everyday will be a battle for my life. If I relapse, I believe I will die.
Yes there is a solution but it is something that is a daily process. I have lost everything but have gained the necessary foundation I have always longed for. My higher power laid me on the operating table. It absolutely sucked but now on the other side I love myself. I have always hated myself. If I hate myself how can I fully love others? If I don't take care of myself how can I take care of others?
What it is like now?
The man I was built to be has emerged from the shadows and the things I love in life are all brewing into a beautiful concoction.