What it was like?

Pathetic comes to mind, all washed up , many other below the belt phrases work too. Alcohol stole my integrity, my jobs, my family My life was out of control! Institutions, Jails and Death , I had lived through the first two I knew what was left.

What happened?

I lost it all, on the streets no one or no where to go. I surrendered to my HP total defeat no one left to bullshit. Time to get honest.

What it is like now?

Honestly it is the best life I have ever had. My sobriety still comes first, right after my HP, my worst day is so much better than my best in my addiction! I love myself today I trust myself today to do the next right thing. I am truly amazed that GOD has done for me what I could never do for myself.