Sober Since: 04 / 01 / 2015
Sober For: 5 Years & 244 Days
What it was like?
Taking up to 25 to 30 pills a day. Spending every dollar I had on my addiction instead of on my little boy. Going through withdrawals on a daily basis and constantly drinking alcohol until I tried to kill myself! In and out of psych hospitals and jail cells for stealing and going crazy.
CPS told me I could go to rehab in the next week or I could turn my 5 year old Autistic son over to them and then a foster home. That was the ultimatum! I found a rehab within 2 days and traveled 2 hours away so I could get sober. I toughed out the first 30 day rehab but knew I wasn’t ready to go home so CPS worked it out so I could go to another rehab closer to home for 2 more months and I could bring my son to live there with me! I jumped at the opportunity. I was scared shitless but I had to do it! My son and I did great there and we finally came home!!
What it is like now?
I’ve had the last 3 years to be able to watch my son grow up without the fog of being drunk or having a hangover clouding my senses! I’m happy and my son is Happy! He’s needed me so much these last 3 years and it kills me to think of where he would be if I wasn’t able to be there for him. I’m so grateful to my family, CPS, the 2 rehab centers, and my group of AA people for helping me become this great mother for my son!!!