Sober Since: 11 / 18 / 2018
Sober For: 4 Years & 74 Days
What it was like?
I thought I had everything under control. Wine was just my way of awarding myself after a hard days work, and my “mean” to calm down. But somehow I knew there was a problem - cause I was only drinking at night, when the family was of to “neverland”. The picture for the outside world was “perfection” - right job, house, car. I tried to handle everything to perfection - no one should be able to find out... I hid it for the masses, but the most important person - Wifey - had seen through all the BS...
Tried before to “have a break” from the alcohol, even with assisting meds, my mind “won” over the matter - and I continued the wrong path... then one day at work in November the my future path became evident... I could continue as I had, and in the end it would either result in the loss of my family or it would kill me - or both. Neither were the future I wanted, so the decision was made, and the ball was set in motion... and its been rolling on a positive path ever since...
What it is like now?
I am closer to “perfection” than ever (I now know I will never get there completely, but heck, I already love the life I have)... it is a new life and a new chance I have been served... my mood is better, energy levels are up, stress is down, lighter view on life, more tolerance towards others, better health, more exercise, better sleep, more present for the people that matters... and as a small side effect 34 lbs less weight to carry around .. what’s not to like?