Sober Since: 07 / 27 / 2019
Sober For: 3 Years & 240 Days
What it was like?
Seemingly good times filled with confusion, fear and instability. I would look in the mirror and not recognize myself. And somehow I thought I was in control. But every time I took that first hit, I completely lost track of time, self-awareness, EVERYTHING. I didn’t know who I was anymore. I just wanted to be high. Smh :(
For years, I didn’t think I had a problem. Despite the constant issues at work, the withdrawal from family and friends, and the obvious signs from God.. I thought I had everything under control. Then my best friend of over 10 years told me I couldn’t be around his family until I got help.. That hurt like hell. But I’ll be damned if I let drugs get in the way of me seeing my little niece grow up.??. So here I am, 31 days and counting...
What it is like now?
The light that my friends and family were so used to me radiating is FINALLY back! I’m in the gym regularly, I’m gaining my weight back, I’m singing and writing songs, I’m present both physically and emotionally for my loved ones... And most importantly, I care about my own well-being.. I’m HAPPY AGAIN! :)