What it was like?

As a life long drug and alcohol user, my days were always a hustle. I had to do what I could to survive and support my habit. The grim end was near as crack cocaine and alcohol consumed my life. My every thought was about drugs, leaving behind the fact I had a son, a girlfriend and her 4 kids as blessings I denied. It was dark and lonely, I was useless as a man, and could not contribute in anyway to my life.

What happened?

In an attempt to score one night, hiding my addiction from my girlfriend, we drank ourselves to oblivion. The fact I couldn’t get drugs that night drove me crazy, and my most selfish being arose. I was pulled over after an argument with my girl and the truth came out...well only after I lied and lied and lied about it...this was in June. I relapsed twice until one day my step son got in trouble and I put him in his room. Walking by I heard him singing, “I pray to God, I pray to God.” Curious I asked, “you pray to God?” He said , “if you don’t, you won’t go to heaven.” He was 3. I found Jesus 5 days later in a church where I told the Pastor I was and addict and needed help, he prayed over me and my family. Such an incredible feeling to have that weight lifted from my shoulders.

What it is like now?

Today I am happily married to my absolute rock and best friend. We’ve been through it all, step kids, having a baby, bought a house, own our cars. Besides the material things we’ve acquired, Jesus is in the center of it all. Meetings are attended, getting out of self is so important. We all need to be spiritually aligned, or we become extremely selfish, which is now forever marked on my arm as a fresh reminder. I will never have to worry about using again unless I want to lose all the blessings I have today. Anyone can do this one day at a time..

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