What it was like?

It was like having the flu. ? Alcohol was on my mind 24/7 even though I kept getting sicker and sicker. Watched my life crumbling before me even though I managed to get up and go to work every day and pay my bills. I felt like a rotting zombie I staggered through life just waiting for my next buzz.

What happened?

The shocking realization I was a slave. I was being bullied by an inanimate object. ? Everything I loved doing slipped away because it was interfering with my drinking time. My doctor told me that the party that is my life has got about a year or two left then I'm quite possibly worm food. Being enlightened to those things still didn't wake me up until I realized that wow I'm such a selfish coward that death wont even scare away the booze.

What it is like now?

The fog is being lifted and I now can see how beautiful things are!!! Luck and life seem to go my way I guess that's another way of saying responsibility. ?So all I have to do is the right thing and the bricks fall in place. Wow what a simple concept. I know I still have a long road ahead but at least most of the forks in it have disappeared. I have drank my fill. Only took half my life now lets see how the other half lives ONE DAY AT A TIME!!