Sober Since: 04 / 28 / 2008
Sober For: 14 Years & 225 Days
What it was like?
I felt either frantic or nothing. The stress and anxiety I had were self fulfilling. I drank to bury the stress and created more every time. I just wanted it to not hurt so bad all the time. It was like constantly flailing around.
I heard a poem about sobriety on the radio. I realized I wanted what that poet had. I wanted it more than I wanted the buzz. I started googling sobriety groups and found one that fit me. I read and read and than I read some more about addiction.
What it is like now?
Life is real now. I give my family the respect of being present. I love that my grand kids will never remember me being drunk. I have done so many wonderful things and created such wonderful memories since being sober. My worst day sober is a thousand times better than any day being drunk. I am always amazed at the relief I feel when I remember that I don't have to drink today. It's my choice, and I choose sobriety daily.