Name: Amanda Bertelson
Sober Since: 08 / 13 / 2019
Sober For: 0 Years & 194 Days
What it was like?
I never missed work because of it and 97% of the time I even made it to the gym. I came home, made dinner with a glass of wine or two. Made sure the kids got their home work done, showers and into bed with another glass of wine or three. All the while I was annoyed, so irritated at their mere breathing and I would be so mean to them. Biting their heads off, making them cry. Then they would go to bed and honestly I couldn't wait for that moment to come so I could have a glass of wine in peace. Then my boyfriend would say something to me, about anything and I would flip my shiz! I would be so nasty to him for no reason, even accusing him of awful untrue things and then I would finally tip over for the night. The next morning I wouldn't remember most of any of it and that pattern would repeat for 3 years.
I have drank since I was 14 off and on, but I finally had enough. I was hurting my family, my kids and boyfriend didn't want to be around me because I was awful! There are days when I want to tip over, but I won't, I can't do that to myself or to my family
What it is like now?
I am present! I have so much patience with my kids and enjoy hanging out with them. I laugh A LOT now too!