Sober Since: 09 / 12 / 2014
Sober For: 4 Years & 256 Days
What it was like?
I was drinking everyday and smoking weed to not feel. I was physically and emotionally unavailable to everyone in my life. I was unemployed and unemployable. Suicidal. And too cowardly to do anything but drink and smoke my life away.
My love said this isn’t working for you and it certainly is t working for me. I think you need to make a call. That was his way of saying call someone in program. I had been on a relapse and it was time to get serious about recovery. Time to live life on life’s terms.
What it is like now?
After promising myself and my loved ones that I would do everything that was suggested to me by the outpatient program and AA as well as my psychiatrist and other doctors I gave my recovery all of me. I was willing. Because of that I now lead a peaceful and serene life and fly under the radar on all parts of my life. What I mean by that is there are less highs and lows. No drama. Just normalcy and that is the way I like it. That isn’t to say I don’t have bumps in the road but when I do I handle them with the grace of a woman in recovery with a program thanks to the fellowship of AA, especially my sponsor.