Tk Beljanski

My dad was an IV heroin user, I saw what it did to him and I had seen many people go through withdrawal by a young age. All that considered I was strangely naive about opiates. I became an IV user almost immediately. I spent a lot of active addiction in and out of very physically and mentally abusive relationships. One I thought was definitely going to kill me at one point because he was strung out on speed. I had zero self worth and I overdosed a total of 15 times. There was one point where I was in a psychotic state for 5 days in the hospital and they weren’t sure I was ever going to come out of it. I didn’t even recognize myself with my face and body covered in scabs. I had lost everything, my family, my friends and my will to live. And still I had no desire to get clean and no one could convince me to. The idea of living without drugs was scarier to me than the idea of dying from them.

I was homeless on the streets for a bit where things that are still hard for me to talk about happened to me. Getting past 30 days clean felt impossible but I justified my use by using differently and not as often. Then I got pregnant. My life changed and I had purpose again. I found out very early thankfully and as soon as I did something inside of me clicked. I immediately went to a treatment type facility and after that went to recovery groups 3 times a week. I wasn’t getting clean for just me this time or because other people wanted me to, I was getting clean for my son.

My life now is amazing. I have 2 beautiful children and an amazing fiancé. I have good relationships with all my family and friends. I’m currently going to school for Mental Health and Addictions, I want to help people like so many helped me. I do not ever regret getting clean and I am SO thankful for my life today!