Sober Since: 04 / 10 / 2010
Sober For: 12 Years & 243 Days
What it was like?
I was a tangled up mess, desperately trying to escape my fears. I was full of anger, had an extremely long list of resentments, and I was being suffocated with self-inflicted shame.
On April 10, 2010, my heart simply couldn't bear another blow. I woke up on my dirty bathroom floor after a particularly gruesome night and I looked in the mirror to see a tired, humiliated, and worn out alcoholic. The reflection showed a scared thirteen-year-old girl who had somehow managed to white knuckle her way through life. I picked up my cell phone and called the only person I knew who was sober. I cry when I think of that day.
What it is like now?
I have a loving husband who respects me, a silly baby that I emotionally connect with, and friends and family who know they can depend on me.