What it was like?

I am still in "it"...working hard to have each day be my last. So today, 12/15/17 is my LAST day!! So SO hard.

What happened?

Ive been a binge drinker for the past 15 years. Over the past 12 Ive mixed in another harder drug. Noticing my life getting harder and harder to control, the depression lasting longer, the hangover days becoming more frequent. Not enjoying the things I used to as much, having a harder time hiding the bottles from my two children. NEVER ever want them to remember their Mama having an issue with drinking. I want them to see a healthy, happy, kind and loving Mama. Its time to grow up and stop putting my addiction in the drivers seat. Time to take back the control and start living MY life again.

What it is like now?

I trust that tomorrow will bring me more joy and happiness, so long as tomorrow is a sober day. I trust I can live my life in sobriety, I trust I can create the life I want by committing to sobriety and allowing myself to rise up to my fullest potential.