Sober Since: 11 / 28 / 2017
Sober For: 4 Years & 175 Days
What it was like?
I was always miserable with myself even though I had many blessings. I hadn't enjoyed drinking for a long time as I only wallowed in misery and recounted sad stories when I was inebriated. My life was improving tremendously and I began to think I didn't deserve my blessings.
Hurricane Irma was barreling towards my home in Key West, FL. I was facing losing everything beautiful I had built and felt very deeply I wanted to be the type of person I was meant to be. I was torn left and right by storm disasters, evacuation and watching the people you love go through such devastation. On Thanksgiving I realized how how happy I had been throughout the times I had abstained completely and decided to make a permanent dedication.
What it is like now?
Now I'm thriving more than I ever could have dreamed. I have a car I'm responsible enough to drive, a new place to live that is just mine and I can afford, a booming business and Deep spirituality. I have made so many beautiful new connections and strengthened my relationships with the people in my life who matter. I remind myself often what I have, what I could have lost, and how lucky I am to be able to help others in my life with a strong sober mind.