Sober Since: 09 / 09 / 2019
Sober For: 0 Years & 338 Days
What it was like?
"The alcoholic is like a tornado roaring his way through the lives of others. Hearts are broken. Sweet relationships are dead. Affections have been uprooted. Selfish and inconsiderate habits have kept the home in turmoil" Big Book, p. 82 That sums it up. I completely destroyed every thing and everyone I came in contact with. I drank a liter of whiskey every night for about 5 years. It was my best friend, until it became my worst enemy very quickly.
I wanted to quit for a few years but didn't know how. I feared the physical repurcussions that quitting a bottle of whiskey a day habit would bring. I got a dwi on August 2019 and spent the weekend in jail. Did that cause me to quit? Nope! I went right back to it when I got home. Then my girlfriend that I loved dearly dumped me in part because of my drinking. Did that cause me to quit? Nope! About two weeks after my dwi, I sat down, took a sip of my drink, and began sobbing uncontrollably. I knew that I couldn't do it anymore. I had to let alcohol go, for good! I checked myself into a treatment center and completed a 42 day program.
What it is like now?
After treatment, life became better than I could have ever possibly imagined. I began seeing a counselor on a regular basis to help me with my anxiety and underlying symptoms as to why I started drinking in the first place. I also got the love of my life back and we're expecting a baby in September. I feel very, very blessed! I will do everything in my power to be the best version of myself that I can be, not just for me, but for my daughter.