Miri Roberts

My life before sobriety was basically the typical sick cycle of being drunk every single day, getting DUI's, feeling hungover everyday, pitiful incomprehensible demoralization, and dreaming of a normal life, but not understanding how to get there. I didn't understand that I was an alcoholic and just assumed I was a bad person. I had a low self esteem and thought I wasn't worthy of being anyone's wife, mother, employee, or friend. I wanted so badly to change, but didn't know where to start. I wanted to fix everything that was wrong with me in one single day and eventually went right back to the way things were.

I hit rock bottom after my sister died on her 34th birthday. I was in so much pain and misery that I decided to just be drunk all day long. My drinking was out of control and I was drinking and driving without a license every single day. I knew to the core of my being that I was about to get a third DUI and the though occurred to me, "if I never ever drank again, I would never get another DUI. I would probably never get in trouble ever again because the only time I was in trouble was when I was drunk". I started to pray for God's help and he must have sensed my sincere need because he helped me almost immediately. I finally got the courage to call the central office help line and they hooked me up with the girl who became my first sponsor. Her and I went to a meeting together and eventually started working the steps together every week. I relapsed 10 days in, but waking up hungover after attempting to change my life, really hurt. I was finally desperate enough to really accept that I was an alcoholic and began to throw myself into AA like my life depended on it. I went to a meeting every single day and sometimes even three times per day. I made friends, went to AA dances, and was committed to my program and the steps.

I have been sober for 9 years and my life is better than I could have ever imagined. I have a great job as a property manager and a Colorado real estate license. I am married to the love of my life, have a six year old son, and together we have a life beyond my wildest dreams. I owe everything to God, AA, all of the people who helped me get sober, and the amazing friends I have made along the way. I feel truly blessed! If anyone is wondering whether or not sobriety is worth it, it is and so are you!