Sober Since: 06 / 02 / 2017
Sober For: 4 Years & 111 Days
What it was like?
I was lost, broken and empty...
I went through pure hell in the lowest points of my addiction....
What it is like now?
This is what 3 years clean and sober LOOKS LIKE!!!??? God, today marks 3 years--3 looonnggg years!!? Yet, it's quite strange for it feels like 30 years sometimes and then down to 3 months. It's incredible how my mom dies when I'm 4, my life is without her. I'm molested and raped by 13. I grow up in an abusive home. Bounce from one abusive relationship to another. Raped again by both my pedophile/rapist biological sperm donor and finally, the one that pushed me over the cliff, right over the edge raped by the man who raised me from the age of 4. That one killed me,it literally shattered every fiber of my being!! I loved him so much, he was the only father I had ever known, I respected him, I idolized him, he was my hero!! I lost myself there, completely!! I cared nothing for myself and I truly wanted to die, just die!! My higher power, He kept me going. For I should not be here today. I rose from the lowest point of my life and I owe it all to my Lord up above, THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOO for showing me your LOVE, giving me your STRENGTH and allowing me to still BE HERE TODAY. I'M 3 YEARS SOBER...WOOOOOHOOOOOO!!!!!!!!??????♀️???♀️??♀️????????#3yearsobrietybirthday????? #SOBRIETYISLIFE #ONEDAYATATIME ❤️ ❤️ ❤️