Sober Since: 03 / 19 / 2014
Sober For: 8 Years & 264 Days
What it was like?
Using was just one big party until it started to grab a hold of my life. It turned into something I liked to do instead of something I wanted to do. I felt like I needed to get high to be normal. I hated myself. I remember laying awake at night wanting to die but not having the balls to do it.
After awhile the pain had finally become great enough and I was ready to make a change. I sought help for my addictions two days after St. Patrick's Day and haven't looked back since.
What it is like now?
Recovery has allowed me to create a life worth living. One where I'm a good daughter, friend, employee, and overall productive member of society. I have become a person I only ever dreamed I could be. The blessings I have found in recovery are countless today. I am grateful for every up and down I have experienced because they have all made me into who I am today.