Sober Since: 11 / 12 / 2019
Sober For: 2 Years & 318 Days
What it was like?
I have NO off button. When I start drinking I don’t stop. The only things in life I feel true guilt about have all been actions I have done while drinking. Stripping at a work Christmas function. Cheating on my ex. Throwing up on myself. The list goes on.
My last straw was in LA with my new boyfriend. He is amazing. We were having what I thought were controlled drinks through the day but as some point I past my limit. I do not remember a thing but I was told I called my ex 5 times - I woke up and my boyfriend was gone. This relationship is the healthiest relationship I have ever had and I knew I had to stop drinking to save it.
What it is like now?
I feel SO clear. I feel confident , I wake up with energy. I am not scared of fucking up because I am in control of all my actions. My life has gone uphill since the day I decided enough was enough. Do I miss it ? Yes. Is it hard ? Yes. But is it worth it ? 120% yes. The picture below is me celebrating 2 months sober with a shot of Apple cider vinegar !