What it was like?

It was fun until it wasn’t. Drugs and alcohol became my existence. It became not only my way to cope, but to function.

What happened?

After a birthday binge of alcohol and cocaine for three days I surrendered and reached out to someone I knew was sober. He never asked about anything. All he said was “do you want to go to a meeting”? I’ve been sober ever since?

What it is like now?

I am thankful for my recovery. I have done so much since I tried to keep it in today. There have been trials, tribulations and joyous times and they all brought me to today. The compulsion has left but that’s not to say it could rear its ugly head. I have a higher power that has vast religion aside in exchange for a true feeling of trust not only in that higher power but in myself. The flowers don’t bloom everyday but when they do I am able to see them, smell them and give them to someone. My only regret and this is the old me talking is, what if? What if I had never touch a drop of alcohol or a line of cocaine? What could I have become? It doesn’t matter❣️