Name: Jodie Brown
Sober Since: 12 / 18 / 2017
Sober For: 4 Years & 154 Days
What it was like?
I started drinking at a young age of 12,13 years old I knew I had a problem from the first time I drank because I was a blackout drunk, that didn't stop me from drinking soon booze wasn't enough for me and I started using drugs. I didn't care about anything but drinking or using didn't matter who I hurt along the way. Hurt myself and my loved ones and friends. I just wanted to numb the pain I felt inside and nothing was enough soon I didn't want to feel any more at all end up in the hospital countless times from my drinking and being a suicidal drunk. In and out of the drunk tank almost every other day. This continued to go on until I was 17 and started trying to quit. Thats almost 10 years ago I been trying to quit
Went to my first treatment center when I was 17 I will be 27 in November I've quit a few times since then the longest was just over 10 months fell off in September 2017, was in relapse for about 3 months which is the shortest relapse I've had. I found out December 2017 that I am pregnant. Thats what made me want to stop this time around. Having a little human growing inside of me and wanting so much for her to give her what I never had. To be a better person than I used to be. To be a sober mommy, so my daughter doesn't have to see what I did growing up. I'm not quitting just for me anymore I have to think about her.
What it is like now?
Now today I have 6 months sober I don’t think I could have done it on my own being pregnant definitely gave me the nudge I needed to get back on the wagon. I still have a lot of healing I know I need to do. My baby is due August 12th 2018 I was hoping to go to treatment again before she I born but looks like I will be going after to a family one she can come with me to. I can't wait to see what life has in store for me and my girl but for right now I am taking it one day at a time. Continue on my path of Sobriety. Someone once told me don't just count the days but make the days count thats what I am doing. Choosing to live sober not only for myself but for my baby growing inside of me. So I can end the cycle of addiction in my family.