Sober Since: 04 / 25 / 2011
Sober For: 11 Years & 228 Days
What it was like?
In retrospect, living in my addiction was like living a nightmare over and over again. I was constantly shameful and hid myself from others. Ran away from all my problems and acted like nothing happened. I don't remember much but whenever I get a memory back from that time it literally scares me so bad. I was extremely unhappy.
Having the support of friends and family made it easier. But I struggled for a while before I officially became 100% sober. I was diagnosed with pancreatitis at 22 years young. It was a life/death situation. I quit 8 months after that but eventually went back. Even the thought of death didn't scare me out of my addiction. I went back to the hospital with another bout of pancreatitis 5 months after I started drinking again. After an arrest I came to the conclusion it wasn't worth it. Joined local aa group April 25, 2012 and surrendered. I am now celebrating 6 years of sobriety and couldn't be happier.
What it is like now?
My life became better. All the stars aligned and everything slowly fell into place. My bank account slowly stopped being in the negative, relationships became stronger, and I slowly became a better person overall.