What it was like?

Very lonely. I would go weeks where the only time I would leave the house would be to get food, smokes and rum. I spent years wallowing in depression and self pity.

What happened?

I stopped drinking for 6 months a couple years ago and since then I've been playing the on again - off again game with booze thinking I had some kind of control. Finally, I just got tired of fighting myself and threw my hands in the air and said "I'm done!" Haven't looked back since.

What it is like now?

I can honestly say that I am in the best spot of my life. I have started to learn how to look at my past with compassion and forgiveness and truly start to heal. Still not an easy road by any means, but I know that I am now on the right path and my best days are still in front of me.