Sober Since: 03 / 06 / 2015
Sober For: 5 Years & 270 Days
What it was like?
Words cannot describe what my addiction to alcohol was like. It put me into the category of "It won't happen to me".
My addiction to alcohol was brought on by the death of my beloved 17-year-old younger brother (My best friend!), by an abusive relationship, and chronic pain due to a neck injury. I had horribly low self-esteem. Drinking alcohol gave me "liquid courage" and made me more outgoing (which now I realize that outgoing and "sloppy drunk" are two totally different things). I was also 95% pain- free from the severe, chronic neck pain. I drank heavily for approximately 18 months, in which the last 3 of those months I only drank to keep withdrawal symptoms at bay. I started having major blackouts. That's when I started to figure out that this disease was going to kill me! One day I decided I couldn't live like that anymore. My cousin has given me the nickname of "Snow White" years ago. After drinking so much for so long, my nickname had become "Snow Black" On the day I decided to detox, I told myself "You got yourself into this, now get yourself out!!" So I did. It took me 6 to 7 days of active, hardcore detox before I could even start to function halfway normal again. I didn't know that alcohol detox could be fatal and should be done with medical supervision. I later learned that my detox process was near- fatal for me. I'm so lucky to be alive!!!
What it is like now?
Lucky to be alive, I'm told. I'm making the ABSOLUTE BEST of it now!!! I've apologized to those who were affected by my addiction, even MYSELF. Nothing but positivity, actual living, and worthwhile memories lay ahead, every minute of every day!!!!!