Sober Since: 09 / 11 / 1989
Sober For: 32 Years & 259 Days
What it was like?
It was like being trapped in a box, and being so alone, although I lived in one of the biggest cities in the world. Even though I was in a relationship, had friends and went to work every day. getting high or drunk is all I cared about...but even this stopped working after a while. That was the worst, chasing that feeling, but knowing it was gone forever, but being unable to walk away.
I got married to another Addict, and as we were going down together, she got help, and realized that I too was on the Titanic, and needed to learn how to swim. My last drink was half a beer, walking from 8th street to the World Trade Center, in April of 1989, but my Sober date is in Sept, as that was when I started working on my Recovery through the 12-Steps.
What it is like now?
Life is good, if imperfect. Since I got Sober, I have raised my daughter by myself, gotten a Master's Degree, changed careers and locations, survived the loss of my parents and an older brother, Divorce, unemployment, and life on life's terms. Sobriety has also given me the opportunities to help others who struggle, including my daughter and other family members, who have struggled with their own Addiction and who have had loved ones who were struggling. And most of all. this life gives me hope to keep moving forward...One day at a time.