What it was like?

Heartbreaking. I was broken, I was breaking the hearts of everyone that tried to love me. I had lied so much that I was just avoiding everyone so I didn’t have to try to remember the lies I had told who.

What happened?

I finally came to the point where I knew I couldn’t live the way I was. I was starting to wish I wasn’t alive, I was full of misery. I thought the stress of work, and life was the problem. I went to the doctors for help with my depression and anxiety. I found AA through this doctor and a huge sense of relief came over me that I didn’t have to be miserable anymore. There was a solution for me.

What it is like now?

Now I have periods of serenity that don’t always last forever but are so much more then I could have imagined. I am able to just sit and be me now. I am much more peaceful, much less angry and controlling. I was willing to get help and do what was asked of me and I hope I always stay willing.