What it was like?

I relapsed after having 2.5 years sober and I can't begin to explain how miserable I was. Alcohol and drugs no longer numbed the pain that I felt. No matter how much I did, I couldn't make it go away. My addiction turned me into a lifeless, soulless, empty shell.

What happened?

July 18th, 2016 I tried to take my own life. I woke up in CCU and I was so angry with God for saving me. "I felt sentenced to another day of life like the BB says. But God intervened that day and I am so blessed to be able to say that I have been sober ever since.

What it is like now?

Life has taken on new meaning. I have peace and serenity that I have never known before. I have happiness that comes from within. And most importantly I have a relationship with God today that I never dreamed I could have.