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In March, Demi Lovato marked her sixth year of sobriety but through numerous tweets and Instagram posts revealed she continued to struggle with her addiction.
The Story In The Song
Just last Thursday, the 25-year-old released a new song, revealing a recent relapse: “To the ones who never left me / We’ve been down this road before / I’m so sorry, I’m not sober anymore,” Lovato sings in her new heartbreaking piano ballad, “Sober.”
Elsewhere in the song, she apologizes for the “drinks spilled on the floor” and admits: “I wanna be a role model / But I’m only human … I’m sorry that I’m here again / I promise I’ll get help / It wasn’t my intention / I’m sorry to myself.”
Lovato has battled addiction, mental illness and disordered eating for years. In 2011, she entered treatment, where she was treated for bipolar disorder, bulimia, self-harm and addiction. She relapsed after she left the treatment center, then entered a sober living facility for a year.
“I’m Not Sober Anymore.”
Last March, Lovato revealed she celebrated six years of sobriety.
But in April, fans online speculated that Lovato had relapsed when the same photo was posted to separate Instagram accounts: In one post by singer Hayley Kiyoko, Lovato was holding a cup containing a yellow liquid; in the other, the cup appeared to be blurred out.
A few days after the Instagram post made the rounds, Lovato announced that she would be canceling the remainder of the South America dates of her Tell Me You Love Me World Tour.
“I’m absolutely heartbroken that I have to make this announcement today… due to production issues we have to move the South America #tellmeyoulovemetour dates,” Lovato tweeted April 10. “Ecuador, Costa Rica, and Panama I’m devastated we had to remove those shows.”
Living Two Lives
In her October 2017 documentary, the “Confident” singer admitted she had used drugs while promoting a sober lifestyle back in 2012.
“I wasn’t working my program, I wasn’t ready to get sober. I was sneaking [cocaine] on planes, I was sneaking it in bathrooms, sneaking it throughout the night … I went on a bender of like, two months where I was using daily,” she recalled. “There was one night when I used a bunch of coke and I popped a few Xanax bars, and I began to choke a little bit. My heart started racing, and I thought to myself, ‘Oh my God, I might be overdosing right now.’”
She also confessed to faking urine tests and going through about 20 different sober companions before finally getting clean, as well as to being tempted to relapse after attending the 2016 Met Gala.
“Everyday Is A Battle.”
In September 2017 Lovato was honored with the “Spirit of Sobriety” award at the Brent Shapiro Foundation for Drug Prevention Summer Spectacular in Beverly Hills.
“Every day is a battle,” she said at the time. “You just have to take it one day at a time, some days are easier than others and some days you forget about drinking and using, but for me, I work on my physical health, which is important, but my mental health as well.”
In her song, Lovato adds near the end, “I’m sorry that I’m here again. I promise I’ll get help.”